I'm barely hanging on.
Thursday, September 9, 2010, 7:05 PM
Sometimes, judging other people's actions, might be wrong.
So, I'm back, yeah? I don't even know why exactly I'm back. Since I don't really have a topic in mind. Maybe I'll just write about today? Though there wasn't much.
Woke up really early this morning. Thanks to that makeup lesson. I mean, honestly, there's no point to that since the assessment has been made already. Why do another one, that is much worst than the last one? Wtf. I just find that today was a utter waste of time.
Well. Went to schl really early today. And, wasted a lot of time while waiting for people. A lot of people didn't come. Well, who actually cares anyway. Had performance. And how wonderful, because we were the first group. And, well, I have to say, I think we did better then the rest. But, that fucking Miranda, is too extraish. I mean, her speech is so horrible that you can barely understand what she is freaking saying.
Then the whole time, I was trying to get rid of her awful perfume smell, and to drone out her voice. It's fucking hard, because I don't have the aid of music. But I'll keep trying to drone out people's voices. Until I can do it. It takes practises. But of course, it's always good to drone out voices at the right time.
And in everyone's lives, I'm sure something like that had definitely happened before. Even mine, of course. But you know, I've gave a lot of thought about things. And to me, I think... maybe I should leave a way out so that I can.. put down my thoughts somewhere. And this might be the place. Who knows what'll happen right?
And, to me, I think... it's important that we live to the maximum. But that doesn't mean doing illegal things, of course. To tell you the truth, who'd be so stupid to even dare to possess drugs, or anything illegal? Plus, where I live in, the cops here are, like, good. So, it ain't that easy to get away with it.
Oh. I'm getting out of point again. Anyway. I don't know how exactly I got that theory from. But you know what? I think it's already a miracle that we're breathing at this point, at this moment. Although I've always wanted to die, but you know, I won't commit suicide. I won't. I don't know why. But while waiting for a chance to die, why not, live our lives to the best, to the maximum? Somehow or another, we'll have full while doing it.
I've always said that life isn't fair. I've always said that life doesn't end. But what exactly do I know? I don't know nothing. Because I ain't old enough. And I don't have enough experiences. But you know, everyone of you, if you're reading my blog, I'm sure someone is taking care of you. And if you're thinking that life really sucks, and there's no point to living anymore, I can understand why you feel that way, I know how you feel. Because up until now, it's how I feel too. But, you have to understand. If you die, in any means, somebody will be hurt. Even if that person always treat you with cold shoulders, it doesn't mean that he/she doesn't care for you.
It's just a different kind of care. And if you have the ability to be sitting down, reading this post, I'm sure, there's somebody out there caring out for you. Because you aren't in the state that you're too poor, to have a computer at home, or to even head over to LAN. But, you know, no matter in what state you're in, you won't be as bad as the people living in places that they don't even have proper food to eat. Those are the people that really need help.
You see, if you think in the very global way, where you're in, in this state, it's all in the mind. And it isn't thta bad. Because, there are bound to be people around you that cares for you. And if you think through it, I'm sure, I'm not lying. I use to hate life a lot, but there a lot of things that we have to see. We can't only see the bad in life. And that, is how my eyes are opened.
You might be wondering, why exactly am I writing all these 大道理, but you have to understand, they will be useful to those of the people who wants to end their live. Like I said before, us living is already a miracle. And I'm sure everyone knows. People have to die one day. It's only a matter of time. And that is what is the most important now. If we don't cherish the time that we have now, sometimes, people around you die. Or even at the worst, we can die ourselves. No matter how young we are. Because nobody can predict what would happen the next day.
We aren't the worst off the world. There are people that are in much worst state. And at the same point, they try their best to stay alive. Why can't we when we've basically got what we need?
Don't think of anything else. While we're alive, let's cherish the time that we have, and work towards our goals, and continue to stay alive w/o wasting time.
Ps. Somethings are disappointing, but if you can put it down, it'll be alright.