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Saturday, May 1, 2010, 12:41 AM
"Sometimes, ending your life might not be such a bad idea."
This is all just plain stupidity. Finally one day that I can put my mind in rest of that fucking bitch. -,- I mean, I don't know how to explain it. But it's finally going for the better... Well, at lease for this long weekend, that is.
Anyway, I'm spending the weekend in MALAYSIA. Uh, yeah. So, whoever sees this, honestly, I'm in Malaysia, and it's best you do not message/call me. Yeah, MSN or email would be okay. :D
Okay. So many things were in my mind when I was in the car just now. And I really meant by so many things. Everything started to dangle together that I don't know what's going on anymore.
So many things. And I think the first ones are the project works. You know, I couldn't sleep because I constantly thought of the homeworks that I've gotten for the long weekend. Man, this is just a three day weekend, is it that bad that you've got to give so much homework?
And my day started bad again. Argh. Stupid bangbang's fault. And, I finished another golden book Secrets of My Hollywood Life: Paparazzi Princess. Andandand, Secrets of my Hollywood Life: Broadway Lights, I'm gonna come and conquer you. :D
Hahaha. And, I still hadn't get my chance of borrowing Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. Man, I think it's a good book the moment I heard the name of it. Weird huh? I mean, I saw it on an ff, and yeah. I went to check up on it. And it's about a suicidal thing that made me interested. Hahaha. So, I might just add my review up. Lol.
Anyway, Paparazzi Princess was great. :D Though I liked Family Affair more, since there were much more drama there due to their costar Alexis Holden. And, I liked the way, uh, Jen Calonita wrote about how FA was ending. Guess what, I almost cried like, in front of so many people becauase of the book. -,- I read the ending part and I almost wanted to cry. You know, it's the cycle of life. Even I've been through it. Getting over the primary schl life, and starting in secondary. It's hard, you know that.
I don't even know how I've managed to pull through it. I think I have to thank the girls for that. Hahaha. Anyway, back to Paparazzi Princess.
I mean, it is nice... but, y'know, it's lag of drama. Lol. Though uh, Ava&Lauren did cause a lot, but it's how they got Kaitlin into "trouble", so to speak. I mean, they were bad companies. -,- Even worse than Sky Mackenzie. Guess what, I mean... To compare Secrets of My Hollywood Life: On Location to Paparazzi Princess, I'm sure I enjoyed Paparazzi one more. Because Sky wasn't that bad, and they were working together.
Okay, I better not write too much? Because I think nobody's gonna be interested to go and read. Plus, I'm definitely sure I don't want to be copied again.
And then, I started thinking about all those stuff that happened this week. Although there wasn't much, but there was ALOT of drama. I just hate them. I mean, I like reading them, but I hate real life dramas.
Stupid, stupid, stupid. I don't know lurh. This week, at a lot of times, I felt like getting a knife and just stab it into my throat. And that issue about that bitch, I don't think I'm gonna pursue it, unless she comes dashing to me. Well, I'm just gonna be on my guards.
And about the suiciding thing, I haven't felt this way for a long time alrd. I mean, before 2010, I felt blessed. I felt happy. And now, everything's shattered. And I think my feelings are even starting to avoid it's owner. Wow, how great that is.
I know this is already a long post, but I think I can go on. I mean, I can continue speaking. I don't know why, I have the urge to type a lot today.
And. Argh, I just don't know what to think of already. Sometimes, things get screwed up so easily. I mean, some actions can't be undone. And once you've done it, there's no more turning back anymore - pathetic. You know, honestly, being alive is just like, being pests of Earth.
(I'm not planning to sleep tonight. :D And, I think I'm gonna be on computer the whole night instead of studying. Okay, maybe I'll try to read a little while I have time. :D)
I mean, so what if we're alive? We can't pursue what we want to do! And that's the most important thing in life. People always say that, if you've got something that you want to do, you've got to pursue it. AND NOBODY'S LETTING US, KIDS DO IT!
I mean, what'll happen if one day, we die of a sudden death huh? Then we've got so many things that we want to do that we can't. Ain't that stupid? Can't adults ever think about us?
Anywayanyway. Let's stop those? Yeah. I don't think I wanna talk about today too. It was boringgg. Stupidschl. Rawr.
I mean, it was boring. -,- Other than science, :D. Lol. We totally joked around. Then Siyuan's facial expressions were funnyshite. Of course not as funneh as Wenhui's lurh. Lol. But still. They were funny.
MsC (aiyah, lazy type.) was like explaining what kind of experiments we can do, or like, uh, design. And then Siyuan sit there like, "HUH, I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT!" face. Super funnny. Then Wenhui and I see alrd, we immediately giggle. Then MsC saw alrd, then she look @ Siyuan. Then is like, she damn paiseh. Lol. Sorrysorry, Siyuan.
Lmaoz. Damn funny. Then after that, after MsC left, then is like, Wenhui go imitate. Super funny also lurh. --"!. See, w/o these people, I wouldn't be able to live till now manszxzxz. Would've taken a knife and slash my wrists alrd. (Fiona, I'm not trying to scare you. I didn't do it!)
So, yeah. I'm really grateful that I do have a so called group that I belong to. I mean like, yeah. At lease you know that there's friends that'll be standing by your side to make you happy when you're sad. (Right?)
Gosh. I don't even know if this is gonna last. I have a bad feeling that the good days are gonna end soon. Crap.
Ohmygod. I just saw the preview. And this is such a long post! YAYNESS. ;D
Note to self. 1/5.
Finish up math workbook. Dued on Tuesday, when schl reopen from schlhol.
Geog workbook! Page 25-26.
Study for history test, on Wed. Still tentative. Check w/ bangbang.
Study for geog test, Thurs. 2-3pm. Check handphone for pages, chapters, etc.
Fill in the Science experiment procedure. Dued on Wed.
Homecons reflections. (Refer to colourful foolscap that you've "coloured".) Duedate: Friday; Homecons lesson! Last week to complete!